<i>Miss Saigon</i> 'The Movie In My Mind. Great song. Really beautiful. Very sad. Lyrics are:

<lj-cut="The Movie In My Mind">GIGI
They are not nice, they're mostly noise
They swear like men, they screw like boys
I know there's nothing in their hearts
But every time I take one in my arms
It starts:
The movie in my mind
The dream they leave behind
A scene I can't erase
And in a strong GI's embrace
Flee this life
Flee this place
The movie plays and plays
The screen before me fills
He takes me to New York
He gives me dollar bills
Our children laugh all day
And eat too much ice cream
And life is like a dream
Dream
The dream I long to find
The movie in my mind

KIM
I will not cry, I will not think
I'll do my dance, I'll make them drink
When I make love, it won't be me
And if they hurt me, I'll just close my eyes

KIM, GIRLS
And see they are not nice, they're mostly noise
The movie in my mind they kill like men, they die like boys
The dream that fills my head they give their cash, they keep their hearts
A man who will not kill but every night again it starts

KIM
Who'll fight for me instead
He'll keep us safe all day
So no one comes at night
To blow the dream away
Dream
The dream I have to find
The movie in my mind

ALL GIRLS
And in a strong GI's embrace
Flee this life
Flee this place

KIM
A world that's far away
Where life is not unkind
The movie in my mind
</lj-cut>

So sad, I love that little song.

That whole musical is said, really, I think there are maybe three somewhat happy songs, the rest of it is at least a little bit depressing. Or said enough to make me cry, that happens too. Last line of the whole show: 'How in one night did we come so far?'. *sniff*

Anyway, I have a rant. I got the game EverQuest for a Christmas gift, all right? So, I get this game, we get it installed, the internet is actually working properly for once, and then I find out that the video card needs to updated to DirectX 8.1 or better. This computer has DirectX 8.0! So, I go to update it and I hate Microsoft updates because they never seem to work properly, but I go and click to update it, and it starts working, then it stops. Now I'm trying again and so far it's going well, it's three-quarters of the way downloaded. Fingers crossed that it keeps working. The time thingy is complete crap, it says 16 seconds, five minutes ago it said one hour and thirty five minutes. *smites it*

Moving back to Miss Saigon {hey, it's a new obsession}, that movie Pirates of the Caribbean {I don't think I spelled that right}, the father of the girl Elizabeth, the governer, he was played by Jonathan Pryce, a Welsh actor. Incidently the same actor who played The Engineer, the slimy, cynical pimp, in the original cast of Miss Saigon. It's so great.

I tend to write or steal good lines from places to use in fics. I have a notebook devoted to my random lines/passages. I have some really good ones. Such as:

"Must a Christ perish in torment in every age to save those that have no imagination?"

"I am going to seek a great perhaps. Bring down the curtain, the farce is played out." {that was someone's last words, I don't remember who right now}

"If you can keep your head down when all those about you are losing theirs, it's just possible that you haven't grasped the situation."

"God damn you all. I told you so." {Churchill wanted that to be the inscription on his tombstone}

"You have not converted a man because you have silenced him." {I love that line}

"Now is not the time for heroics! Now is the time to turn tail and run like cowards!"

"Never make a defence or apology before you are accused."

"To people like him, death is just a formality."

And I'm done I think, I have tons more. I use lines I made up at random moments all the time.

Argh! The damn update won't finish downloading. Why?

*throws something at the wall*

*sings along with the CD to make herself feel better*

"I'm disgraced
I can't get ahead
There's nothing as dead
As peace here in Bangkok..."

And I'm off. I just felt like posting something.

The damn thing still won't finish. I will kill it. I will.

<lj-cut="meme 1">01. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?: I don't know, you think I keep track?

02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?: My friends and I make the same resolution every year, that we'll stay friends.

03. Did anyone close to you give birth?: No, but my aunt's baby is due in February.

04. Did anyone close to you die?: Not that I know of.

05. What countries did you visit?: Canada and Britain, nothing unusual there.

06. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?: A new purpose.

07. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?: A lot of dates will.

08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?: Making new lasting friends. Ones that matter.

09. What was your biggest failure?: I'm not sure.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?: I was sick for four days, nasty virus, at the end of November. I had another virus back in March. I get sick one or two times every year.

11. What was the best thing you bought?: Tickets to the Deep Purple concert in February {bought 'em last weekend}.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?: How in hell should I know?

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?: Again, how in hell should I know?

14. Where did most of your money go?: Music and books, not sure which.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?: Going to England last April, I love travelling.

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?: Cherry Lips, Garbage. Long story.

17. Compared to this time last year, how are you: A little wiser, I think.

ii. thinner or fatter?: About the same, maybe a pound or two difference.

iii. richer or poorer?: Richer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?: Spent time with friends.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?: Worrying in general, I was seriously stressed out all year.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?: With family at home, and then with friends in the days after.

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?: *mona lisa-esque smile* I am saying nothing.

23. How many one-night stands?: None.

24. What was your favorite TV program?: Law and Order, Criminal Intent. I love that show. Maybe Queer As Folk and Queer Eye too.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?: I don't hate anyone, I either like you, love you, or don't give a damn.

26. What was the best book you read?: Shogun. I love Shogun. OoTP is up there, too.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?: I don't know, I discover a lot of music.

28. What did you want and got?: A better keyboard.

29. What did you want and not get?: Freedom.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?: Return of the King.

31. What did you do on your birthday: I was sick on my birthday, it sucked ass.

would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?: Freedom.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?: A little hippy, a little punk, a little gypsy-kinda-thing {jewellery}.

34. What kept you sane?: I'm completely mad.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?: Alan Rickman, it's the voice, man.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?: That absurd war.

37. Who did you miss?: I don't know.

38. Who was the best new person you met?: Ashalyn. I love her dearly, although she told me that she thought I was very arrogant when she first met me, then figured out that that's just how I talk, you shouldn't take it personally.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003: It's a lesson I was reminded of again, never stop questioning.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "We're part of the fire that is burning/and from the ashes we shall build another day." -- The Moody Blues

--- </lj-cut>

<lj-cut="meme 2">[x] What's your favorite farmyard animal?: I hate farmyard animals, always have.
[x] What colour is your toothbrush?: Off-white, it's electric.
[x] If you were a genie and someone rubbed your lamp and said "I wish that you wouldn't grant my wish" what would you do?: Flip 'em off then leave, they let me out, may as well use those powers to have fun.</lj-cut>

<lj-cut="meme 3">The Questions No One Ever Asks You But You Wish They Did

[x] If you were a fireman on your way to a fire and you passed a fire on the way, what would you do?: Firewoman, I am not a man. And I'd probably keep going to the original fire. Besides, what in the hell am I doing as a fireperson, anyway?
[x] If you choke a smurf, what colour does it turn?: White.
[x] What is your left foot touching right now?: Empty air, I've got my legs pulled under me and my left foot is dangling over the edge of the chair.
[x] Look under your bed. What's there?: Boxes of stuff, probably some clothes, maybe a few dead things.
[x] What was the last word you read?: read
[x] What was the last thing you printed?: My history paper last Wednesday.
[x] What was the last thing you heard?: 'I've tasted true salvation/your power is my drug'. I'm listening to Blue Oyster Cult. The song is After Dark.
[x] What's your favourite letter of the alphabet?: N. I love the letter N for no reason at all.
[x] What's your favourite toe?: I don't like my toes, they're all deformed from dancing for five years. Ballet is a form of masochism, I swear to god.
[x] If you had to be a rapist or one of the people they raped which one would you be?: I'd rather be some sort of vigilante killer, thanksverymuch.
[x] If you could only have one of your five senses, which one would you have?: hearing. Sight is good, too, but I couldn't live without being able to talk to people or listen to music.
[x] If you were a member of the opposite sex, what would you want your name to be?: Nicolas. because I really love that name.
[x] If you could be anyone in the world, who would you be?: me. Slightly richer and with more freedom, but me.
[x] What's your favourite body part?: My eyes. I have bright green eyes with some flecks of gray in them, very nice.
[x] Who, in your opinion, has the nicest eyebrows?: I don't know. I get compliments on mine, I am so not kidding.
[x] What does the W in George W Bush stand for?: 'Why the fuck am I president?'
[x] If you were a superhero, what would your name be?: *blinks*
[x] Have you ever used the 'ikins' or 'ipoo' on the end of someone's name?: I have.
[x] What's that over there?!: That would be me poisoning your drink.
[x] Finish the sentence - There was a young boy who had a...: toy. It rhymes. Joy.
[x] Tell us a joke: A priest, a pedophile, and a pervert walked into a bar, and that's just the first person.
[x] Tell us a fact: I can speak bits and pieces of five languages. </lj-cut>

<lj-cut="meme 4">The Stuff You Really Should Have An Opinion On

[x] Euthanasia: Have at it.
[x] Abortion: Everyone should have a choice.
[x] Racism: You shouldn't hate people for race, hate them for being morons.
[x] Suicide: I wouldn't do it, but if that's your thing, have at it. </lj-cut>

<lj-cut="meme 4">Friends and Family

[x] Do you get on with your family?: My father better than anyone else.
[x] Do you have lots of friends?: No, I know a ton of people, but I have maybe five friends.
[x] Do you wish you had more?: Not particularly.
[x] Do you wish you had more/less siblings?: I only have one, but I often wish I was an only child.
[x] Do you think people really know you?: A couple.
[x] Who understands you best?: Hannah
[x] Who makes you happy?: Myself, Hannah, Dana, Ashalyn on occasion.
[x] Who's the weirdest?: Me
[x] Who is most like you?: Hannah
[x] Who's the rudest?: I can be rude, but my sister takes the prize here.
[x] Who's the geekiest?: Me, probably
[x] Who's the most talented?: me
[x] Any last words?: Why has it gone from numbers to 'x's? </lj-cut>

<lj-cut="meme 5">The Deep Stuff

[x] What do you want from life?: To be myself.
[x] What is beautiful?: Life, truth, me.
[x] Where do you see yourself in ten years?: In an apartment in New York, a writer.
[x] What is love?: Something you feel for a very select few
[x] Have you ever been in unrequited love?: no
[x] Have you ever been in love with someone you shouldn't have?: In love is cheap, I have loved people I probably shouldn't have.
[x] Have you ever been really scared?: Once.
[x] Have you ever considered suicide?: I have never wanted to kill myself, but I have contemplated dying.
[x] Have you ever attempted suicide?: No.
[x] Have you ever cut yourself?: no.
[x] Do you consider yourself a happy person?: Probably.
[x] Do you believe in god?: I believe in a higher power, but not god in any of the religions.
[x] What makes you cry?: My father can do it.
[x] What's your biggest achievement?: Keeping a B average in math for a year now. I hate math.
[x] Any last words?: Why are you asking me this again?

---- </lj_cut>

<lj-cut="meme 6">MATH

How many letters are in your name?
First: 9
Middle: 6
Last: 4

How many keys are on your keychain?: 2.

How many windows are in your home?: 15 or so

How many exterior doors are in your home?: 4?

How many cars have you owned?: One. I'm getting a new one, as mine has ceased to run.

How many states have you had driver’s licenses in?: One.

How many e-mail addresses in your ‘primary’ e-mail account address book?: Never counted, ten?

How many e-mail accounts do you have?: 3 or 4.</lj-cut>


<lj-cut="meme 7">ARTS & ENTERTAINMENT


What is the last book you read?: The Fall of the King by Ellen Kushner and some other chick.

What are you currently reading?: I was re-reading Rhapsody, sort of.

What do you plan to read next?: Whatever I get for Christmas {I always get books}, and the Silmarilian {not that I can spell or anything}

What was the last movie you watched alone?: Part of Fellowship

What was the last movie you watched with someone else?: Two Towers, Les Misérables {same night}

What (if any) one television show(s) do you watch religiously every day/week?: Law and Order, Criminal Intent


What (if any) is your favorite sport?: None...?

Network News: BBC

Soaps: General Hospital, until it went crap

What is your favorite musical?: Oh, hard question, um...Les Misérables or Rent.

Have you ever seen a live opera production?: Yeah

If so, which ones?: Carmen, Carmina Burana, and Amahl and the Night Visitors.

What is your favorite opera?: Carmina Burana. Monks back in the Middle Ages wrote smut in Latin, some German dude got ahold of it back in the '30s and put it to music, thus, Carmina Burana.

Who is your favorite playwright?: Shakespeare/Oscar Wilde.

What is your favorite play by him/her?: Macbeth/Lady Windermere's Fan

Who is your favorite poet?: Jacques Prevert

What is your favorite poem by him/her?: Déjeuner du matin

Who is your favorite stand-up comedian?: *shrug*

Which ‘Friend’ would you say you are most like?: Phoebe

Who in ‘Mayberry’ do you have the most in common with?: Eh?

Which of the two questions above was easiest to answer?: The Friends one.

--- </lj-cut>

<lj-cut="meme 8">Name: Alejandra
Age: 16
Where did you grow up: Seattle Area, Washington

WHAT DO YOU CALL:

1. ...a body of water, smaller than a river, contained within relatively narrow banks? A stream?

2. ...the thing you push around the grocery store? A cart.

3. ...a metal container to carry a meal in? A lunchbox?

4. ...the thing that people cook bacon and eggs in? *snort* A pan.

5. ...the piece of furniture that seats three people? Couch.

6. ...the device on the outside of the house that carries rain off the roof? Gutter?

7. ...the covered area outside a house where people sit in the evening? Patio.

8. ...carbonated, sweetened, non-alcoholic beverages? Soda

9. ...a flat, round breakfast food served with syrup? A pancake.

10. ...a long sandwich designed to be a whole meal in itself? A sub

11. ...the piece of clothing worn by men at the beach? Trunks.

12. ...shoes worn for sports? Tennis.

13. ...putting a room in order? Cleaning.

14. ...a flying insect that glows in the dark? Firefly.

15. ...the little insect that curls up into a ball? Roly poly.

16. ...the children's playground equipment where one kid sits on one side and goes up while the other sits on the other side and goes down? See-saw

17. How do you eat your pizza? With my hands

18. What's it called when private citizens put up signs and sell their used stuff? Garage or yard sale.

19. What's the evening meal? Dinner.

20. What's the thing under a house where the furnace and perhaps a rec room are? Basement

21. A window covering on rollers that pulls down? Venetian Blinds

22. A new, limited access, multi-lane road is a...? I have no idea.

23. Heavy garments worn for work? Overalls?

24. The highest grade of gasoline? Premium or something?

---- </lj-cut>


<lj-cut="meme 9">five details about your appearance right now

[x] Messy Hair
[x] Sparkly sweater
[x] Torn jeans
[x] Red fingernails
[x] No makeup


five things you did today

[x] Took a shower
[x] Made my bed {gasp!}
[x] Listened to BOC
[x] Wrote
[x] Sent of work to be beta'd

five groups/artists you listened to yesterday
[x] Garbage
[x] BOC
[x] Nirvana
[x] The Moody Blues
[x] Deep Purple

five things that make you happy
[x] Music
[x] Writing
[x] My friends
[x] Books
[x] Black eyeliner

five things that disgust you.
[x] the president
[x] Stupid people
[x] Rude people
[x] Bad parents
[x] Homophobes

five things you can't live without.
[x] Doritos
[x] The internet
[x] Music
[x] Books
[x] Writing

five things you'll do when you complete this.
[x] Check my email again
[x] Post this
[x] Get something to eat
[x] Talk to Jill some more
[x] Write to Ashalyn about getting together soon

five things you feel right now.
[x] Awake
[x] Listless
[x] Like I want to write, but can't
[x] Bored
[x] Like i want to be alone </lj-cut>

That was momentarily entertaining.